Ever since certain friendships have discarded me, I have felt a strange sense of relief. A sense of less gravity that almost makes me queasy. At first, emotions stirred and tumbled, tricking me into thinking that there was something to be salvaged. But now I am seeing how much stress simply trying to perpetuate it caused me. I need to pay attention to my true feelings about people, and learn to relinquish those that have faded. It's fair. They may still be great in their own right, but they are no longer a good thing to personally be exposed to.
In the beginning, both myself and they were different people. We have since changed tremendously, in a considerably short amount of time, and a foolish part of me yearned for the past. This is destructive. Time and circumstances simply cannot be conveniently spliced and rearranged. Change isn't the most popular presence. Perhaps this is why a sudden change can seem unreal and certainly unbelievable, despite its legitimacy. The struggle to re-balance begins (never an elegant process.)
This seems to be the year of great change, and perhaps I have become that person to some: a sort of unbelievable. Stagnant waters can't help but envy the clarity of the steadily-flowing stream, (Bare in mind that the rushing river has sharp points just below a tumultuous surface) or at try to pollute it with random garbage. This is what doubt looks like.
In real-world application this could be translated to business: Anything new, at first, seems like a gamble. Yet, it has always been the adaptable that survive and continue the cycle. Doubt is prevalent at such times, but those who quiet their doubts and turn potential into action are those whose impact is remembered. Doubt's only purpose is to slow or halt - is that where I wish to be?
It is better to remember only the lessons learned, as holding on to the "good times" in a dead relationship will continue to trick the mind into loops. Doubting whether or not these relationships should have ended when they did only hinders my full potential to find and share what I have with potential future friendships.
In the beginning, both myself and they were different people. We have since changed tremendously, in a considerably short amount of time, and a foolish part of me yearned for the past. This is destructive. Time and circumstances simply cannot be conveniently spliced and rearranged. Change isn't the most popular presence. Perhaps this is why a sudden change can seem unreal and certainly unbelievable, despite its legitimacy. The struggle to re-balance begins (never an elegant process.)
This seems to be the year of great change, and perhaps I have become that person to some: a sort of unbelievable. Stagnant waters can't help but envy the clarity of the steadily-flowing stream, (Bare in mind that the rushing river has sharp points just below a tumultuous surface) or at try to pollute it with random garbage. This is what doubt looks like.
In real-world application this could be translated to business: Anything new, at first, seems like a gamble. Yet, it has always been the adaptable that survive and continue the cycle. Doubt is prevalent at such times, but those who quiet their doubts and turn potential into action are those whose impact is remembered. Doubt's only purpose is to slow or halt - is that where I wish to be?
It is better to remember only the lessons learned, as holding on to the "good times" in a dead relationship will continue to trick the mind into loops. Doubting whether or not these relationships should have ended when they did only hinders my full potential to find and share what I have with potential future friendships.