it seems that i am growing a tougher skin against it.
but this doesn't make just sense to me, as growing a thicker skin indicates a sense of less sensitivity and perhaps even a barrier against future pain.
this isn't me.
i still feel just as intensely as before, and sometimes i still wonder if i am losing my mind over seemingly nothing.
perhaps i am losing my mind just a little bit.
with each "breaking of a heartstring" i actually feel a sense of loss each time, but it is not so much a sadness, rather... i picked up something heavy and worked with it as long as i could, only to place it back down on some other point in the journey.
there is no point in holding on to very much when one is always moving.
i would rather be moving than "stuck"